I was in therapy this year, examining the cognitive distortions I'd created for myself. It was a productive time, and that's how this story came to adopt them as a theme. There are a few Jane is latching onto: emotional reasoning ("I feel I've been rejected, so I have"), noticing only failure (Mar hesitated, didn't text back right away), disqualifying the positive ("sure, we were kissing just hours ago, but that doesn't count"), catastrophising & minimization ("this will destroy me; I still have time to run away"). To be honest I have my doubts about psychology and its failson brother internet self-diagnosis; it's too easy to assign problems and histories to oneself that are more flattering than corrective. But learning about these behaviors really did help me, and I'm grateful to have entered the dark tunnel and had these conversations.